SoS 8:4

I woke up this morning just excited to be alive. On my lips were songs of praise and my heart has been near bursting all day. I can’t contain it, I just want to run outside until I can’t breathe, to drive for miles so I can sing, to bask in the sunshine and praise my God.

Song of Solomon 5:8

Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you– if you find my beloved, what will you tell him? Tell him I am faint with love.

My heart cries in anticipation, it aches to be held.
Oh LORD who am I that you would choose to have MERCY on me and give me a love like what you have promised me.
In your great GRACE you picked a man hand-crafted in your image to join you and cover me and my children.
You chose a mere MAN to hold you in his heart and be your hands and feet so that through him you could physically love me in this earthly body more than I ever could imagine.
You chose him for me so you could love me more.
Father, you chose me so that through me you could love him more.
I pray that I would be worthy of that calling
That you would help me to be everything that you need me to be for him, for You.
Help me to love him with YOUR love, to touch his heart with these hands of mine that YOU made.
Without you my LOVE, my LORD, the great I AM…I am nothing. But dust of the ground.
Without green tendrils to wrap my vines around
Without feathers with which to fly upon
Without roots with which to grow tall with
I would be a nothing…
A tree without shade…useless
A fish without water…dead
A bird without air…fallen
An apple fallen on parched ground…fruitless

But because of you and your great LOVE and MERCY and GRACE

You have heard me and rescued me. You have seated me with Christ at your right hand, you have given me more than I asked for, more than I deserved and more than I ever could imagine…

Fly with me my love, on the wings of Praise for He is WORTHY.

Isaiah 40:28-31

Do you not know?
    Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
    and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
    and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
    and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.

Until we meet,

Amanda

Set Apart

Some days I struggle that I’m different. Call me what you will, a nerd, a geek, a people pleaser, a loser, fat, too nice, too good to be true, a retard, or even fouler names that aren’t worth mentioning here, I’m just different…and I’m okay with that.

A few weeks ago I wrote a blog post about crying in the car because my heart ached.  I felt as if I wasn’t worth being known and I was hurt by rejection and cruel words by even those who call themselves Christians. I’m different, I always have been. And then I mentioned “The Game” and how I don’t play it because I can’t. There’s something in me (or Someone perhaps?) that nullifies my ability to play “social games” and catch their queues.  I’m a part of a Facebook community called A Modern Day Ruth:

http://ruthwaits4boaz.blogspot.com/

I relate to Jenny in many ways. She posts things on her many ministries (Ruby Wives, A Modern Day Boaz, etc) that God uses to speak to me as well as things from other places. Being patient and set apart for God’s uses is a process. He has used her to reach out to men and women, married and divorced, helped to heal broken hearts and comforts those who are waiting on God’s best. Being set apart means having some patience as well. Sometimes we are called to wait. For some it’s only a short time. For others it’s a longer period of time.

I have been hurt. But I have no bitterness in my heart. I am no longer a victim because God has redeemed me. I have no hate in my heart, I can’t allow it there or it will consume me, just as it has consumed the world. I am no longer controlled. God has opened up my eyes so that I may see the controlling actions of others. Even those who are close to me, I can see it and so because I have a heavenly Father who wants to take care of my EVERY need, I pass those notes along to him.

Being Set Apart means living VASTLY different from the world. Here are some verses addressing that:

Romans 12:2: Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Proverbs 1:15: My son, do not walk in the way with them; hold back your foot from their paths,
1 Peter 2:9: But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.
Philippians 2:15: That you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world,
Matthew 7:13: “Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.
Deuteronomy 7:6: “For you are a people holy to the Lord your God. The Lord your God has chosen you to be a people for his treasured possession, out of all the peoples who are on the face of the earth.
Proverbs 14:12: There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.
1 Samuel 16:7: But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”
Psalm 4:3: But know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself; the Lord hears when I call to him.
1 Peter 1:14-16: As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, since it is written, “You shall be holy, for I am holy.”
Revelation 18:4: Then I heard another voice from heaven say: “‘Come out of her, my people,’ so that you will not share in her sins, so that you will not receive any of her plagues;

Being Set Apart is a condition of the heart. Something that leaks through and shines on the outside. It’s not an easy road. The enemy attacks from every corner, tries to steal your joy. Keep turning back to the Lord even when it is dark and you cannot see. The Bible says the Word is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path and so we immerse ourselves in it so our light shines brighter and through our light others around us, also in darkness can see clearly. The more clearly they can see Jesus through you, the more they realize that they need their own lamp so that they can light their own way. And so it spreads. Be set apart. Be different. Yes it’s harder. Yes being different can be lonely, even among those who also claim to be different. But still choose to be different because you were made different.

Choose to embrace your difference and be a light.

~Amanda