I just ended almost 2 years of employment working for NASA. I really thought this was the coolest job with the coolest people (and boy did I feel like I had “made it” considering my grandfather was a space engineer) but when God says He’s got something greater with a greater purpose, you know things will come to an end. Today was that day.
I believe my career has been an idol. I have always worked for big name companies or the government and though I know my trade school education and my own knowledge didn’t get me to the heights I was at and I always gave God credit for getting me there, I’ve always had this pressure and fear resting on me.
When I was married I was the breadwinner. Once I became a single mom 100% of everything rested on me and fear gripped me. Fear that I wouldn’t be able to make it, fear that I had to make things happen so my children didn’t have to suffer. I lost my job once before about 2 years ago and I spent 6 months at home with my kids before landing this job. I literally had run out of money from unemployment when suddenly my neighbor gave me money because the Lord asked him to.
He promises to take care of us.
1 Timothy 5:8 Anyone who does not provide for their relatives, and especially for their own household, has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.
We have been adopted into sonship. We ARE His family. He can’t be an unbeliever because our belief is found in Him. We are fully cared for and we will hear Him telling us which way to go so our hinds feet land in high places. Our steps are firmly planted when we walk with Him.
With that said, my dad and I are starting up something awesome. Something that will be a part of the Kingdom Restoration. Restoring the lost to the people and helping to build them up again. I was freaking out over my choice to do this and was asking Him to tell me what to do and He said (through a song) that I had a choice to go the way I had always gone or choose a new path that either way He would have plans for me. The catch was one of these would cause me to have more trust and increase my faith in His ability to provide, the other would be business as usual. Immediately a song hit my heart and I cried as its words flew out of my mouth, the words of Belle; I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, I want it more than I could tell. And with that I had the answer my heart was yearning for; freedom.
And so through my own freedom, others will be empowered by their restoration to seek His freedom for their lives.