To Be

To be held by you.

To softly rain tears on your shoulders

To embrace you and not be turned away

To have every part of me be loved and love every part of you

To see into the most precious recesses of your heart

To touch those places and be touched in return

To make your heart soar

To lay with you at night and watch the stars

To fall asleep with you on the couch

To massage your back after a long day

To make you your favorite foods

To sing Happy Birthday to you

To sing with you…in the car

To be in your covering

To pray with you

To worship with you

To give with you

To give everything that we are to the Lord

To serve with you and to serve you

To kiss tiny toes and faces as we tuck them in bed

To not fear your wrath

To trust you

To trust that you will protect me and not hurt me

To trust that I can share the deepest parts of me and never be ashamed

To stand before you and not be ashamed of who God made me to be

To love you with the love of Jesus

To be in second place and be fully secure there

To ask forgiveness when we disagree and know that I’m forgiven

To make a mistake and know it won’t be held against me

To laugh with you

To make memories with you

To go on adventures and move forward

…and not look back.

 

Your eyes really are my favorite color.

Oh to stand near you and smile at you! God has done a number on my heart regarding you. I listen to your sermons every so often, I love hearing your heart on the Lord, I cherish the moments that you get choked up over Him. I love hearing the Holy Spirit course through your body, I can hear it in your voice, I can see it in the shaking of your hands. I love the crinkles by your eyes. You have spent many years smiling and it’s just one of my favorite things about you, you’re always smiling.

It’s building and growing…the anticipation on my heart. It’s a new day today (yeah I’ve continued from where I left off yesterday) and I woke up so giddy and excited, singing praises to God!

My heart cries, it aches to be held.
Oh LORD who am I that you would choose to have MERCY on me and give me a love like what you have promised me.
In your great GRACE you picked a man hand-crafted in your image to join you and cover me and my children.
You chose a mere MAN to hold you in his heart and be your hands and feet so that through him you could physically love me in this earthly body more than I ever could imagine.
You chose him for me so you could love me more.
Father, you chose me so that through me you could love him more.
I pray that I would be worthy of that calling!
That you would help me to be everything that you need me to be for him!
Help me to love him with YOUR love, to touch his heart with these hands of mine that YOU made.
Without you my LOVE, my LORD, the great I AM…I am nothing. But dust of the ground.
Without green tendrils to wrap my vines around
Without feathers with which to fly upon
Without roots with which to grow tall with
I would be a nothing…
A tree without shade…useless
A fish without water…dead
A bird without air…fallen
An apple fallen on parched ground…fruitless

But because of you and your great LOVE and MERCY and GRACE

You have heard me and rescued me. You have seated me with Christ at your right hand, you have given me more than I asked for, more than I deserved.

Fly with me my love, on the wings of Praise for He is WORTHY.

Isaiah 40:28-31

Do you not know?
    Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
    and his understanding no one can fathom.
²⁹ He gives strength to the weary
    and increases the power of the weak.
³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
    and young men stumble and fall;
³¹ but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.